Wednesday, July 11, 2007
How can I love this human being SO MUCH? You hear before you have kids how great it's going to be...but there's NO WAY to describe what it's REALLY, REALLY like until you're experiencing it! Well...even now I can't DESCRIBE it, but now I understand. There are NO words to adequately express what I feel for Asher. Not to say that I don't have countless "ugly Mommy moments" - unshaved legs, unwashed hair, yesterday's makeup, boredom, helplessness, the feeling of being trapped, etc. But that NEVER takes the place of the DEPTH of awe that I feel when I look at him. To think that he started out as a little thing we couldn't even see... He is a complex human being-part Beau, part me, formed by GOD HIMSELF! He is BEAUTIFUL. He was born with his own, very unique personality, which we see unfold more every day. And I love it. To me, he's the cutest, funniest thing in the world. It's AMAZING to watch him as he discovers his world. I love it when he holds up his hand and just LOOKS at it - like, "Wow! This thing is so cool!" I LOVED watching him look out the window on his first plane ride the other day. He was DISCOVERING something new! He's PERFECT! (Well, not perfect, but you know what I mean.) I love his eyes, the way he looks at me. The way he looks at Beau. The way they literally LIGHT UP when he's happy. The expression in them when he's figuring somebody out. The look of confusion that he might have. Or just the calm and serenity that he possesses so many times. He's beautiful. I love his hands and feet, and the dimples in them. I love his tubby tummy. I love his soft skin. I LOVE his smile. I LOVE HIM!!! Thank you God for our PRICELESS GIFT! Asher Case Waters.