Saturday, July 28, 2007

Ugly Mommy

It's amazing how you can feel all warm and fuzzy inside, then switch to an evil witch in a split second. =) All is well now. No worries. But earlier, I was exhausted. Asher had a bad night last night, then he didn't take much of a nap on the way back from Claire's birthday party - even though he was tired. And I had just had it! He cried in the back seat, while Beau drove, and I plugged my ears with my fingers. I just felt so mad, and I wanted him to BE QUIET!!! But looking back, it didn't last that long, and we're all fine. I suppose we moms just have moments like that. Asher, of course, never knew I was losing my patience with him, but sometimes you know the way you "should" be, and you just can't muster it up. I'm glad it's over. He actually ended up going back to sleep for a little bit, then I was able to keep him pretty happy the rest of the way with puffs. Those things are magical. =) Then, when we got home, I fed him, then Beau played with him for a while, and I took a little nap...which was probably what I REALLY needed! =) I get upset with my man sometimes, but when I stop and think about him and how great he is at loving Asher and me, then I know how senseless it was to get upset in the first place. Granted...that "stopping and thinking" part sometimes takes a long time. I'm lucky he puts up with me. If only I could choose the responses and attitudes that I know I "should". Ay-ya-ya!

4 comments:

Jami McElhaney Schell said...
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Emily said...

I totally know what you were feeling...I feel your pain. There is nothing more frustrating than being uncontrolably frustrated with the people you love the most. You are a spectacular mommy and wife as far as I can tell, even when you want to pull your hair out.

Sara said...

I LIKE that quote! Will I choose growth or not??? I need to remember that! Thanks Jami!!!

Mama Jeannie said...

Oh my Sara girl! I KNOW what you are feeling. I remember and still feel that way with dad sometimes. hahaha I really believe when we are physically and mentally exhausted we are prone to respond in anger even when we know in our hearts that we are making the wrong choice. Guess that's why God gives His beloved sweet sleep; Lord knows, we need it... and OFTEN! I love that when things get really really hard I can make the choice to take His yoke on my shoulders and find that His burden is light. Sara, you are so great at mommying; it's just dang hard sometimes, isn't it? Lord have mercy!!